Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Positive Attitudes

So I'm sure you're all wondering if he called.

The answer is yes. He called yesterday during his lunch break at work.

How did I react?

I had a panic attack. Full-blown, can't-breathe panic attack. This lasted for a good 7 hours. I even considered just giving up on this, because the feeling was so bad.

Why? I don't know. He called well within his boy-time limit. He called me from work. He called. Why wasn't I doing a jig around the room? Because I mentioned maybe making him dinner on Thursday, and he was a bit non-committal about it. But this was what I focused on.

What I SHOULD have done was be thankful to God that he called. I SHOULD have immediately felt better. It took a long time and a conversation with my best guy friend (who thought I was a bit hysterical I think) to feel better. I think I make the mistake of consulting everyone and trying to be something that I'm not and I'm just not going to do that anymore.

So keep the good thoughts going. Hope for me that dinner really happens (the last day he's off for a long stretch) We're both going to this group event (separately) on Wednesday, so pray for me that I know how to act around him.

And to keep my mind off of all this, I'm going to see the re-release of Dirty Dancing tonight.

12 comments:

Katherine said...

He wouldn't have called if he's not interested so you have to keep that in mind! That's really great. Boys are pretty noncommital about everthing, right? So, even if dinner doesn't happen, don't stress about it because he IS thinking about you. Mention dinner one more time at the group thing tomorrow and then let it go.

Amy said...

YAY he CALLED and he called on MONDAY and he called FROM WORK...focus on that stuff! he took time from his LUNCH BREAK to call...those are all important....so whatcha cooking???

Cheysuli said...

Well, who knows? Maybe he already had something he was supposed to do but was noncommital because he'd rather have dinner with you!

Maybe he's scared to death too!

Enjoy yourself. If it's supposed to happen it will. I say this as a cat, not a human because my human is nodding her head at everything you are saying...

Red said...

I agree with Amy: there's plenty of positives that you can focus on. Just remember to breathe when you see/speak to him next!

Melli said...

Carmen! You're a mess! WHAT are we going to DO with you? Breathe DEEP, blow it out... REEEEEEEELAX.... Just have fun with this!!! He called!

Janet said...

good lord, girl!

Renee said...

Like everyone has said...just relax and don't get so hung up on this. If it is meant to be, it will be...but if you stress over it, it will just worry you.

Keep your normal schedule, do what you normally do.

Oh and the dinner idea was an excuse to call him...not for use if he calls you. LOL!

Don't stress about it. he seems really nice and interested. He called you...remember.

Sparky Duck said...

my goodness. If dinner doesnt work out, its not going to take him off the uninterested list. I cant wait until Thursday when you actually have to cook :)

Goofy Girl said...

:( Don't be too hard on yourself chica, you're awesome! :)

Anthony said...

Yes, never be something you're not. That way, when you settle in, there won't be any change.
I think it happens a lot. People are on some sort of "dating behavior" around new people, then once they settle, their real personalities come out. Sometimes good, sometimes bad.

You're better off if he likes you for who you are, not who he thinks you are.

Hails said...

good luck princess carmen. You are a stunner and he is nuts if doesnt go any further with u!!!

xox

mar said...

Yes, he called. Relax, now, relax...
((hugs))